What I thought I knew vs What I learned OR How my semester went.

What I thought I knew:

Like with the other semesters and everything else in my life, I could do it on my own time, my own way. My thought was that I had enough energy and brain power to effectively manage a social life, work life, home life and school work. It didn’t happen that way, unfortunately.

My social life isn’t something to write about, trust me. I’ve had the same 4 people (my mom and brother count right?) that I have talked to for the last few years with my new work friends sprinkled in. Not having much to begin with probably helped not losing much. There, I wrote about it.

The problem was that my social life bled too much into my work life and made it suffer. It was as if I  couldn’t do things without upsetting people that lead to me thinking too much about my work life which burnt me out too fast. I liked my job, I liked the money that it gave me more, but I still liked my job nonetheless. It was easy and a change of pace to the late night, always busy, knock you in your teeth world that was Toppers Pizza management.  I can elaborate more on that if people want in a different post.

Anyway, back to the regularly scheduled program.

I thought I had the answers to everything and thought that I would be able to skate by and fool the world into thinking I was this one of a kind he can build a brand, do school, work, socializing, streaming, wonderful person that I just couldn’t be. I wanted to be better than myself and that leads to my next topic.

What I learned:

This semester I learned that I took too many things for granted an I tried too hard to put other people before my self. I tried working as many hours as I could, burning myself out in the process and making my journey to the end of the semester harder to get to.

I was so obsessed with not being “that guy” (ya know, the bum that just goes to class and doesn’t have a job.) that I put most of my energy into work that it ultimately lead to me dropping a class. Not just any class, the main math class that I need to graduate. Another thing is that I was doing it online which meant EXTRA time to really focus on homework and learning. I didn’t do that. Instead, I put others before myself and just thought that I would do it later but later would never come.


I tried my best to catch up on things here and there. I caught all the way up in one instance and went past where I was. But, it was all for nothing. I ended up dropping the class after finding out that I needed to pass every assignment, every quiz, and every test with 100% that is no wrong answer on anything on things that I couldn’t redo. It wasn’t going to happen even with my best intentions. I begged and pleaded with my instructor to accept some late work but she wouldn’t oblige and I had no other option but to drop my class, a class that my funding had already paid for.

Which leads me to a whole new dilemma: What am I supposed to tell the people helping me out? I’m opting for honesty and truth because that’s the only way that I can deal with people and hope that they show some mercy. That’s all up in the air for now.

Looking forward

Inspired yet? Well, how about a picture of a rustic road and the sun? Yeah, that’s what I thought.

My semester finished strong earning a C, an AB and 2 A’s to go along with my withdrawal grade. There are 2 weeks until my new semester starts. I’m looking forward to proving people wrong. Along with my new found school work ethic and willpower, I’m ready to show everyone that there really is a NEW ME. It will be a struggle, and I will constantly have to remind myself that I should impress myself before trying to impress others. I’m still learning to do so and maybe someday I will put it into practice. But until then, it’s going to remain a battle.

Inspire yourself first.

Inspire others thereafter.

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New Year’s Resolutions

New Year’s Resolutions!

So, today is the last day of 2017 first of all, CONGRATULATIONS! A lot of things went wrong in 2017 but focusing on the negatives will just breed bad thoughts and bad feelings about your year. I mean do what you want to do, if you’re relieved that the year is over and are looking forward to 2018, I encourage it! I myself had a really stressful, horrendous at times year, but I don’t think that some of those things that happened were bad, I look at them as opportunities. If my year wouldn’t have started out with me being fired from my previous job, I would have never wound up in school, never would’ve looked into marketing, or let alone been inspired to be creative and think creatively. If my car accident wouldn’t have happened, I would still be living life as if it were normal and not a spectacular thing, I wouldn’t value my self-worth as much as I have lately.

I know, I know, I’m rambling. Anyway, ON TO THE RESOLUTIONS!

  • I want to do something this year that is DIFFERENT. I want to try some hairstyle or some sort of fashion choice that is new to me and makes me uncomfortable. If I don’t challenge myself, who will?


  • Continue to make better decisions as far as health and money is concerned. I want to continue my diet and exercise routine and possibly increase it or go in harder on it. I want to be a whole new person by the end of next year.


  • I want to learn something new. Not like school, I want to learn a skill or start to learn how to do something that I’m interested in. I have been dabbling in photoshop recently and would really like to continue learning that.


  • My last resolution isn’t really something too different. I want to continue to learn to appreciate myself, the things that I do, and continue to live creatively. I want to continue expanding my Twitch streams into new territories, upload and continue to make my YouTube channel successful.

Beyond everything, I want to live life in 2018

Happy New Year everyone.

Be creative. Inspire people.